Justification

The funny thing is,
I'm doing this on my own.

The strange thing is,
I don't feel so alone.

Though without their approval
or yeses and cheers,
I'm chasing my dream
across miles and fears.

The frustrating thing is,
I have to justify each day.

The justifying thing is,
I keep doing it anyway.

Because the justification
isn't for me;
As I know where I stand.
The justification is for them
to get them off my back.

I know they love me
and I know that they care.
I know it is hard for them
and want me to beware.

But I have my wants too,
though young I still may be,
they've raised me well and wise
and need to trust my choice
and know I hear their advice.

The funny thing is,
I'm not trying to go back.

The strange thing is,
I'm no longer running away.

I want this,
pure and simple,
and somehow
I'll find my way.

Copyright 2009, Colleen Sarah Rice